I havn't been sleeping well as of late. I literaly don't sleep till my body just up and gives out on me. Last night was no diffrent. Laying awake, eyes closed. My body relaxed, but I just didn't go.

Something is a problem, probably just major depression. Hmm, but when depressed, I ususaly just sleep. A person can sleep for 18 hours a day. That's what ususaly happens when I hit that state. Not this time though.

The car being dead doesn't help matters. Neither does the fact that I may louse my job due to it. Life is a bitch, I'd better get usto it one of these days.

It's almost christmas, how sweet. Lots of people trying to buy each others love with expensive gifts. Hah, but that's not the real evil. No, it's far more perverse than that. You have many large companys who have nothing better to do than play off of this. They jack the prices up just before the season, and call them "sale" prices. Bah

Aside from that there is all this christmas music playing. Annoys the hell out of me. The same songs, over and over. Year after year. Why!? It would appear they can't come up with anything better? Yep, that's what it comes down to. Hell, most of those songs are hundreds of years old. Heh, guess humans were never all that creative...

This is the time of year when everybody's credit cards are maxed out. When companys give thier workers token gifts to show thier appriciateon for them. Yep, a fifty cent gift, for a years worth of service. More like a slap in the face if you ask me.

Lets look at my dads company. They usto give a cash bonus. Say fifty dollars. While not huge, it's a nice gift. A few years ago, a company that shall remain nameless bought them out. Now he gets a stuffed toy that's about an inch tall. This is nothing more than an insult! How can these people sleep at night knowing how much they are insulting thier hard workers?

It comes down to the fact that they just don't care at all. It's all about the bottom dollar. Small toys are a lot cheaper, and they look cute. That's the way management things. Or to put it more appropiratly. How they don't think.

I'm going shopping with my parents. First time I've been out of the house for a week. Hmm, and my little sister is back from AIT (yah, she's in the army. Don't get any ideas, she will woop yo ass).

Sitting here, waiting to arive at the most recently installed mall. Heh, an open air style. The major boon of this, is that I can smoke between stores. Not so with most others. They also built it out in the middle of nowhere, and now the property values in that area have skyrocketed. This is no suprize.

Lincoln is moving south, and Beatrice is moving north. I expect to see the day when the two meet, and might as well be the same town. Ignore the fact that they are thirty miles away from each other.

Oh, I'm also not doing all that well in the health area. My cold has gotten worse, and I think I've actualy got something more serious. Hard to tell what, since I have no medical background. Oh well, I'm stuck here for quite some time till I eventualy die. That won't be for quite a while.

Time to go...

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