Lots of things are occuring that at first glance seem strange, but after a bit of though where alredy known about. The decision to stay in kato is a good example of this, I had decided to stay here just a little over a week ago. What I fear about that, is having to tell don & jes this conclusion. Thier are also so many similaratys that it is stagering. Things that are just way too ironic, and need a further explanation. Luckey, the explanation is there, it is just hidden under the surface. Hopefully I can get better at telepathy, The conversations seem a bit one sided at times, She can hear me just fine, but all I can do is sence feelings, and basic state of mind. And this causes her to require vocalzation more than should be. Although, it is still a more effecent means of communication that simply vocal. Finaly after a long time, I have started dreaming again, not just dumb dreams, but livid ones, ones that have hidden meaning to the future, near and far. Katt has been sleeping much more soundly in the last couple of days also, this is very good. Sleep is an inportant thing to survival. The last two weeks where hell in many aspects, sleeping alone sucks hardcore, not being able to feel the hearbeat of your partner, not sharing energy freely, and being traped on localhost. Being seperated from the one you love, have been searching for for well over a hundred years. But it was doable, nothing is not (almost). Lack of conventional communication helped, in my opinion. That is to flat, lacking essanse. Just bits of direct here and there. Perfect in many aspects. She is the first person who has the same basic belif system that I hold, the same basic idealisims. The same idea on rasing children. All this and more. All of it makes sence. I feel a bit bad for running off for flagstaff when I did this summer, but it was for the best, had to happen, as I realized in the parking lot of the courthouse, and on the way back from farbuary. I had known that day would come for many years, I just didn't realize it till it was about to happen. Just like 3 weeks ago, on the way to kato. The same kind of preminisions came to me. Rather elusivly. I have been trained for this since I was young, I think by myself mostly. Several times, I have had dreams, and then many years later, the dreams almost forgoten, I am in the exact same place as the dream, and everything is the same. Almost...I still have the power to change the outcome when I get thier. And, at that point, have the power to change the future from what it once was to be.

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