Well, this is the first actual kidnaping I have done so far. So far so good. We have come to the big part, the actual kidnaping. We are about 1000 feet from the place that this will happen. This is going to be scary. The drive was the easy part. We have to deal with 2 big marines. That scares me a bit. Dealing with katt is going to be a problem too. I hope this does not require violence. That is the last thing I want. But failure is not an option. I'm being paid to do this, I can't fail. We can't fail. Although we could have picked a better team for the job, considering that we realy don't match up very well at all. We have the starving artist type, the yo, sup wit an attitude girl, and me, the non-trained assisan. We could have come up with a much better team from the choices. but her mother thinks that the team is good, and decided to hire us. Darla is an interesting person. She lets on to just what a person has to know, and not much more. Just enough more to keep them interested. This whold situation with katt/angie is so fucked up, I can't belive it. It's driving me insane. I want to pound katt into the ground, and make mad passionate love to angie. These two things don't go together in any sort of way. She was not there. We have to wait till she gets back. This fucking sucks. I hate wating, but since it is work, I don't mind it so much, and the waiting was in the job description when I agreed to it. I have spent much time running various senerios through my head of possible outcomes, and ways to deal with them. But since josh is there, I have a lot of variables that I can't determine. Now that I have a general description I can do more. But the outcome looks worse than I had expected. But this will not stop us, can not stop us. I miss angie in my arms, in my mind, and in my presense. Some of these things should not happen, but I can allow it to a point. Just have to watch what she plays with. katt has enough access to let her think she can still play around, but not enough to get anywhere. I am at a loss of sleep, but being tired is the last of my thoughts. Sleep is one of the last things on my mind, till we get a couple hundered miles away from mankato. mankato, the place where I had decided to live a couple of weeks ago, but knew it would never happen. It was all so simple. Any means will be used to fufill the mission. To almost any extreme. I love angie enough to tie her up with chains to save her from this. My mind has been perverted by ali. I loth her for that. She tried to fit me into a place I didn't want to be, and she almost succeded. Thank god I am strong enough to keep my wits about me in even the most serene situation. That situation seemed so perfect from the start, it took me about a week to realize that this was a bad thing, and to start rebeling. Rebeling in some of the most subtle ways. But they did not go without notice. I think I took the last bit well. But, since it was katt that said it, I am not shure how much ground it holds with angie, and since she was still wearing the ring I gave her, I still have hope. I had known from the start that we where ment for each other, and I am going to keep it that way. She would not have said yes if she didn't truely mean it, and I would not have asked if I didn't truely mean it. I knew that that would happen from the start. The sad part about right now, is I don;t know what is oigng to happen in the next 24 hours. I have no idea. I hate not knowing. It sucks very much. Confusion is on at this point, now it is just a matter of indecesinon. I hate indecision. I also wish I could spell. I don't think I spelled indecisiion the same way twice yet. I feel like I'm doing a very good thing from several points of view, but from katt's I am doing a great evil. One unfortunate thing with looking at other peoples views. Good song on the radio, actualy a cd=changer that the klach has. But, looking at things from alll points of view possible ususaly grants the outcome that is liked by most of the people. This time it may not work that way. But I will be successfull. Another option that I had just thought of, she has to take out the garbage some time, we can just wait for her there, and grab here when she walkes past the dumpseter. I hope that we don't have to fight with our minds. Luckely I have a program writen that should drive anybody out of my head that I don't want there. I am being a bit selfish in this, since one of the main things driving me, is the fact that I want angie back. It's almost a need, but not quite. Since I am fully self sufficent. Or, at least try to be. EOF