Problems, problems, and even more problems. It's the natural order of life. Everybody has them, just some worse than others.

Make them go away!

But it's not that easy. Nobody can make your problems just suddenly vanish. Thier is realy no such thing as magic. For, magic is just an illusion. It takes work to fix these things. It takes patence, hard work, time, and most of all determination. You must realy want to fix these things. If you have any hesatations, any at all. It's just a waste of time.

Being depressed sucks. But, it's pretty normal. Everybody goes through it. But, not all the right way.

You have to look at yourself from the inside. Take a good long look.

Do you like what you see?

What do you think about it?

Are you completely happy with it?

What do you want to change?

Then, you must decide what you actualy need to change. That's the easy part. The next step is a bit more perecarious. You must actualy go about changing them, fixing them. Nobody can tell you how to do this, they can only give suggestions, and hold your hand. It's a long proccess, and can't be done in a day. Probably not in a year. It's a lifetime endevour.

It's very inportant that you don't give up, and slip back. For, then you have lost whatever ground that you have gained. You have to be strong.

Try not to use a crutch through this time. It will only slow you down, and god forbid the chruch breaks. You must be able to do it all on your own. It's hard, but it will make you a better person. It's worth the trouble (all of it). You will probably louse friends due to it. But, think back, where they realy your friends in the first place? Or, where they just people you hung out with. Did they realy care about you? The answer is most likely no.

For, in a lifetime, a person ususaly has few true friends, they can easily be counted on one hand at the time of thier death. True friends are hard to fine, but, when you do. Hold on to them. Definitly worth the trouble.

Thier are people out there that care. Talk to them about it. Get down, and have a deep discussion about how you realy feel. Don't hold anything back. If you do, your only hurting yourself. Never be ashamed about how you feel, if it's realy how you feel. Not just how you 'think' you feel. Major diffrence.

You have to learn to walk before you can run. So, don't take it all on in one day. Do it slowly. Pace yourself, it's worth it. You want to get this done right the first time. Little room for error (some).

Never try to just end it all, it's not worth it. Deffinitly not worth it. Way to many good things in life to experence. Plus, suicide is just an easy way out. Only truely lazy people take that way. It's too easy. And, it won't solve your problems either. Just makes them worse (would you want to be depressed for the rest of eternity?)

But, how do you change the things you need to? This I can't tell you. I don't know all the answers. I'm still working on getting myself working right. But, I can give advice. Tell you what worked for me, but may not work for you.

You must be honest with yourself. That is one of the most inportant thing. Don't hide things in the back of your mind. It only makes things worse in the long run (but seems to help for the time being). Being truely honest with others isn't realy nessasary, or a good idea (mostly).

Let others help, but don't let them fix you. They won't. It may seem like it, but it won't realy help. Will probably make it worse. They don't see the same world you do. It's quite similar, but not the same. Subtle diffrences can become huge.

People throughout your life will use you for the own gain. Don't let them. Not unless it's to your benifit. And, then, be very careful. Don't fall into thier clutches. You don't want that. Nobody wants that. Think about it, deeply. Is it worth the risks? If it's not, then don't.

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