I sit alone on the couch. The same couch that I sleep on almost every night. I do in fact have a bed here in this house. But it's far to much trouble to actualy use. So, instead I use it for storage. I think I've got half a dozen monitors sitting on it right now. Hmm, does a VT102 terminal count as a monitor?

The nights I don't sleep on the couch are due to my roomies having a fight. Or that's the impression I get. I'm yet to hear them actualy yell at each other. I've heard some harsh words, but that's about it.

Then again when I'm home I have my headphones on, and "can't" hear anything. Or at least that's the excuse. I don't want to know. Too bad I do.

If I comment to anybody about this they will question my motives. Life is just not fair.

So, yesterday I was going outside to start my car up. Planning on stoping by my parents house till the roomies go to bed. Pretty common occurance. I like to visit my parents. But a good part of the reason is to get out of this house.

I open the door, and thier little dog makes a run for it (hehe, same thing I was doing). I chase him down (more so walk since I've got 60 pounds of electronics on my back). After I pick him up, and start walking back jeff takes him from me.

This is when I decided to leave without saying a word. I haven't said a word to him since. It made me so irate. He takes the little dog, and throws him (no, harder than you where thinking) into the snow. He's screaming, the dog is crying. By this time I'm in my car.

One of the neibors (a block west) starts yelling at jeff for his lack of kindness. I punch the gas and hope to never see this jeff person again.

Too bad I live with him. Oh well, I've blocked out his favorite porn sites :)

That's another thing that gets me. He's got this most wonderfull girl who he sleeps with almost every night (more on that later). And he still looks at porn! But he's not even very good at it! Ahh, such a child.

He asked me to show him the best porn sites. He assumes since I have a laptop that I either have good porn, or know where to get it. I show him a great site. I then ask him if he wants to see something a bit more exotic.

You see, I've seen just about everything possible at this point, porn is like *ugh* more?

I ask him if he's into fisting. He hasn't a clue what I'm talking about. It discusted him ;) Then we moved to some twinkie porn. Mmm, this caused him to not use the computer for a week! LOL! Gay porn has that effect on the average male. Hehe, it's the best way to make someone scared of you ;)

We now move onto why I don't sleep on the couch every night, and why jeff doesn't sleep with this wonderfull girl all the time. Pretty simple realy.

I actualy know very little of 'why', but can guess pretty well from interactions that I've observed.

About once a week (more or less) I come home to find this most wonderfull and quiet girl curled up in a ball on my place of rest.

Now for the speculation.

He's a screamer, dumb as a post, but so sure he's right. She's quiet, and doesn't want to make waves. This is all so classic. You can imagine that abuse that is bound to happen. I'm not home much to see it. I don't want to think about it. I get in the way and I'm suddenly the bad guy.

So, I come here to sleep. Not too much else. Hmm, if they are asleap it's not to bad. But it's so annoying when I'm sitting on the toilet writing an email when he knocks on the door demanding to be let in.

Eventualy my little sister and I will move to lincoln. Heh, that will be the day. I have a very high stress job, I don't need high stress at home.

Oh, and as a bonus my sister tends to have very cute friends ;) Not that I would ever have any chance with them anyway.

No, I don't look down uppon my own abilitys to get a female friend. I'm just not all that interested right now. Maby when I'm thirty and still single I'll think diffrent on the matter. Heh, but what would it realy matter?

Hell, what am I going to be doing in the eight years till then? Almost seven now. Hmm, I have no long term plans. Never realy had, or I did at one time but then I decided that it was not a good idea to follow up on. Not enough profit, and lack of work in general.

Today I wore my Mac Millita uniform to work. Shit kicking boots, cammo pants, and an iMac shirt. Heh, more of a mixed message than anything else ;)

Oh, and my purple jacket that has a cute cat pin (his name is gigi) on the front tops it off. I'm real scary! Muahaha! No, I'm scary due to looking so strange ;)

Steve didn't hug me today!

Oh, and FYI more complex politics at work. More eggs to walk on. Joy of all joys. I love my job, but we need to louse the politics. Only way to avoid it is to stay busy as hell. Heh, and that has another good effect. It makes me look good.

So, a couple days ago I was watching some anime. Pretty normal. Hmm, I haven't watched an american film in a very long time. I'm enjoying it, then hear a comment from the other room. Something about why is that guy watching stuff with chinese voices.

Of course being the nice person I am I just ignore him. Hmm, chinese does *NOT* sound the same. Hell, the wrighting doesn't even look similar! Ehh. I fear for the masses.

It's almost my bedtime. 0300, time to lay my head down and try to ignore the dog screaming. Hmm, no. That's the treat I get when I wake up. Or when the roomies wake up at 0400 and are loud. I pretend to be asleap. I just don't want to deal with human interaction after an hour of sleep. Hell, I don't want to deal deal with human interaction after twelve hours of sleep!

In some perverse way I hope to get some chocolet on wendsday. You know what that day is? It's valentines day! The day when girls give chocolet to guys they like. Hmm, I somehow doubt that I will get any. Oh well.

It's also quite ironic. Head over to megatokoyo for an idea. Basicly this situation has occured that involves a guy who has no luck with girls. His only experience with them is via manga, and anime. (kina like me) He may get ahold of one tommorow. A real flesh and blood girl. That's truely scary.

All I want out of life is some peace an quiet. Maby some coffee too.

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