Still in kansas, have no job, have no money, don't have anything to do, and don't know many people here. Life is ok...had to deal with worse before. And, then this dog keeps trying to get on my lap. I'm sitting outside, in a friends garage, because I can't smoke in the house. And, what fun is playing with my computer, if I can't smoke. Who knows. Even though I have friends here, I'm still fucking lonely. I miss people I actualy know realy well. The people here are great, in fact they rock, but sometimes, you need an old friend to chat with. Nobody like that around here, I don't know though. Life is strange that way sometimes. It's 0244, and I can't sleep, been trying to sleep since 2200. This sucks. Granted I did wake up at 1600 yesterday, so that may take a bit into acount on the insomina. But still, this is insane. I just don't know what to do. It sucks, but it will be over in 33 hours. 33 hours till I will talk with people I know, actualy be able to look at them, and hear thier voices. That will be nice. Thier is a bucket of fish in this room that discusts me to no end, it's full of fish, little fish, and most of them are dead, dead and bloated. It probably stinks to high heaven in here, but I wouldn't know anything about that, thank god. One of the many reasons I smoke, it keeps me from smelling, not all things, but most things. I can smell fried electronics across a room every time, but that's about it. Everything else is nothing. The dog is becomeing very ansi because my scanner is spewing forth voices. Jumped into my car to not be pummuled by the dog anymore, that was very annoying. I dislike dogs in general, they need too much attention. And you get so little out of it. I have met some I liked, but not that many. From here, I can hear the trains couple, and uncouple, sounds very much like thunder. Also annoying, everytime I hear it, I think it's going to rain (thunder). This makes me parnoid to the point of keeping my windows rolled up most of the time. Also, right now I'm missing keystrokes right and left. Due to the odd angle I am typing at. Typing in my car is not the most confterble thing, but it is far better than having a dog trying to get into your lap when you already have a notebook computer there. And looking over at the fish, that was the worst. Oh well. Music...brb...My AMP is on the fritz (as ususal), and my cdplayer is on loan, so all I have is a tape deck. This would not be bad if I had more than ONE tape. At least it's audio stimuli. It's hot out. Not exactly hot, just realy warm. and humid as hell. Flatscreens cause more RF than I had ever imagined. Drives my scanner nuts, my CB, and pretty much everything else. Hopefully nobody decides to call the cops on me for sitting out here, that would suck...NETHACK time

This town is so quiet, or at least this neiborhood. And with the fact that thier is no wind at all, it makes me think that I am the only person that exists. It's quite strange. Oh well, I'm going to shutdown, smoke a cig, and try to sleep again...maby it will work this time :) EOF