What I hope to be an end to this saga (but, who knows)

Found out that the information had exchanged hands...just didn't give any of the reactions that I expected. But, was still a good wakeup call. So, it's been usefull. But to see the full truth of the matter will have to wait till it happens. It's realy hard to tell if it's had it's full effect quite yet.

Status, she's back with the first, nothing to do about that, better than some of the others from her past. I'd rather see her with him. But it still hurts. Oh well, many things in life do. Oh, and something about sex toys...not shure what to think about that yet, but I'll figure it all out before long. I do every time.

Maby I should get a job with the FBI or something doing investigative report...I know all the right questions to ask, and can tell when somebody's hideing something. But, on second thought, I don't want to do that. Too much paperwork to deal with. Don't enjoy paperwork at all, find it realy boring. Spending half the day moving paper around to look busy...all for a false fisaud. Oh well.

Well, to say the least, I'm happy things have for the most part worked out. At least she doesn't hate me for it...I will look out for her best intrest no matter what, ignoring my best intrest...she's more inportant. I know she understands that. Makes life worth living

Her brother returned home today, and we spent some time chatting about it. Very low key as he put it. Works for me. He commented that it was "verry effective", I like that...if it's not effective, they why bother?

I think the meat in the sandwitch I'm eating expired last week, oh well.

Stratagy learned from playing chess is quite easy to apply to RL, though the connection is not realized by most people. Stratagy is very inportant. In everything. No matter what you do, do it right, or it won't work. Or, may cause things to happen later on that you didn't realize. So, when you do something, you must think about all possible outcomes. And, not do it if any of them arn't worth it...now, thier is the exception of the calculated risk. Sometimes you just go on the gut feeling you have to tell you what to do. Or, more appropriately, to help you choose from your logical set of choices. Some risks are worth takeing. Most arn't. But, the ones that are need to be taken at some points in time. Like the one I took to get where I am now. I faced a lot of possible outcomes that I realy didn't like, but it was well worth the risk. And, I was right, my gut feeling was right. Listen to feelings like that, but don't let them control you. For, alone, they will get you nothing but trouble. It's realy hard to tell when is the right time. Maby I'll write up a file about that later on...probably will.

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