just got back from nebraska a couple hours ago...droped my shit off...moving back there, because we got evicted...sorta...we just could not make rent...Either way it dosn't matter...comes out to the same thing...spent about 10 hours chatting with delphi...never spent that long chatting with anybody before (over the internet), and rarely in real life...The only times I do that in real life, is on realy long trips with other people, but even then, it's not one conversation, it's lots of them with big breaks...her brother is probably the only other person I have chatted with that long before...and that was the first time I met him...It was a good thing though, we talked about things witch we have never talked about before, information switched hands that never did before, and some of it probably shouldn't have, but I trust her fully...so no problems should arize...I gave her the web addy to my page...witch containes my diary...that will definitly be fun :) But, hey...it will cause more discussions to come up, and that's a great thing...my view of her has waxed and waned a lot since I met her...from a cool little sister (like I had wished I had), or a posible gf...more heavly setting on the afore mentioned one, but chaning back and forth depending on my mood, and the situation...in both occurences, since that fatefull chat on IRC I have looked at her as a good friend...I have told her things I never even told her brother...quite a few things...I should probably get some sleep at some point in time...have to work in 7 hours...heh...got a good 3 hour nap on s81 mile marker 225 at 0200 today though...so that's helping...unfortunatly the conversatin ended on a confusing note...I was remembering a situation, and she didn't seem to have any memory of it...witch is realy odd...I remember that mostly because that was the first time I ever saw her brother realy angry...the second time it was delphi, and my fault...we played with the accounts on his computer...that sucked hardcore...never intend to do anything like that again...lost my admin privleges due to it also...found out lots of information from that chat that I had no idea of...and, frankly my opinion of her is raised even higher...found out that we are even more alike that I had previously thought, but still diffrent...it's nice to be similar enough to someone to not argue constantly, but diffrent enough to keep things interesting...tried to check my email today, but www.email.com sucks...it dosn't think the most recent build of lynx is a current web browser...oh well...I'll sneak into the collage later and check it...Plus, as an added bonus, I work here in newton, ks till the 26th...and louse my appartment today at noon...it's the 9th...so I'm going to be pretty much homeless for a while...16 days or so...it's not that bad...but could be much better...have to find a place to stay, or something till the 26th...will probably crash at a pizza hut employies house, or the mods...or, maby just the parking lot of the local truck stop...it's hard to tell...day after day, the skys turn grey...like the skin on the dying man...and night after night we pretend it's alright, but I have grown older, and you have grown colder, and nothing is very much fun anymore and I can't feel, one of my turns caught me home, I feel cold as a razor blade, tight as a turnacite, dry as a furnrial drum...went to the bedroom with my suitcase on the left, and packed my favorite cloths...don't be frightend, it's just a phase...would you like to watch tv, something to eat, would ya...would ya like to see me try...no...would you like to call the cops, do you think it's time I stoped...hmm...that was odd...got into that song, and just kina typed it instead of singing...that happens a lot :) One odd thing, is that music controls my mood to a good part...so when I want to be happy, I put in happy music...and so on and so forth...but oddly enough, I don't have much of that...most of the music I have is either depresing as hell, or just plain angry...even the fun stuff is kina angry, or depresing...I'm not shure if I like the idea of delphi and aaron together...but, that's just my opinion, and should not be enforced...I just think that he is too quick to change, and does things way too much for attention...or, just because everybody else is doing it...even his non-conformity is truely conformity...and he seems to be a manic depresint...hell...I've seen him drunk on several ocasions...that's when a persons true self comes out...or, shows it'self anyway...every time, he was curled up in a ball, complaining/crying...I don't need no arms around me, and I don't need no drugs to calm me, I can see the writing on the wall, don't thing I need anything at all, don't thing I need anything at all, all in all, it's was just bricks in the wall...just bricks in the wall...goodbye cruel world, I'm leaving you today, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye all you people thiers nothing you can say to make me change my mind, goodbye...danm, did it again...hmm...and the end of the disc too...well, either way, that's just my opinon...whatever happens, will...and either way, it will be a lerning experence...I was told I need to get a spine...that one kina hit me funny...that was said after I mentioned that I had never asked a girl out before...I've only met a few girls I would want to have a relationship with, and most of them asked me first...actualy, in the first relationship, nobody asked anybody realy...not in words anyway...it just kina happend...lots of looks, then eventualy, riding the elevator a lot :) But, it ended as quickly as it started...oh well...but I have 3 very specific critera when deciding if a girl would be good in a relationship...1. intelegent...2. good personality (must get along with her well)...3. good health(this means, takes care of herself(dosn't overeat)(good heredity (parents traits count in on this)), and is not crazeyer than I am)...advice I got from someone somewhere...never sleep with someone that's crazyer than you are...did that a couple times...never again!...that was just bad...according to emacs, I'm still on the first line even thoug I know I have good, and well typed in about 3 k or so so far(give or take), got a little black book with my peoms in, and a little a black bag with my toothbrush in, elestac bags keeping my shoes on, got 13 channels of shit on the tv to choose from, I got electric light, I got second sight, I got amazing powers of observation, and that is how I know, when I try to get through on the telephone to you, thier will be nobody home, I got nicotine staines on my fingers, I got a silver spoon on a chain, got a grand piano to prop up my moratal remains, I got wild staring eyes, I got a strong urge to fly, but I got nowhere to fly to, ohh babe, why do you pick up the phone, thier's still nobody home, thier where 37 german planes destroyed(fade)...heh...well done song...going to smoke one last cig, the go to bed...kinda...No matter what happens, It will work out, it does every time...must have faith...faith is a powerfull thing...EOF